Last week

Monday starts my last week watching Julian. I can't believe I've been babysitting him since March! There has been a lot of good times, especially in the beginning. The last two months have been a struggle though. I think there is lots of jealousy between the kids. Julian is used to being the only with his Grampie, Grammie and Mom all doting on him and here there is 3 kids and 1 adult. I'm not sure why but he started to show a lot of aggression towards Christopher especially. Hitting kicking, pushing, throwing toys at him. I'm sure it's a way for him to show Christopher that HE is the big kid around here, dispite being only 2(5 months older to be exact) he is much much bigger.

I know it will be very hard for my sister in law because she has yet to find a replacement for me but with my parents coming next week I really didn't have a choice. I choose not to watch him after they leave because, well its summer time and we would like to spend time together as a family. Chris has a week day off and it is always when Julian was here so it was a wasted family day. Soon, Elizabeth will be in preschool as well. I would like to work with her over the summer and get her more prepared. I do feel guilty for putting my sister in law in this situation but it was suppose to be temporary from the start and she's had 4 months to figure something out. I think I mostly feel like if she looses her job over this, Chris's family will blame me. I don't know why I feel the need to make everyone happy. I need to keep reassuring myself that this is best for MY family and their needs come first.

I hope we finish off the last week with Julian on a positive note. The kids will miss him, they did enjoy another kid to run around with. Maybe I will start a playgroup for my area.